You broke me

I blame you girl oh yes I do
Coz if you didn't love me the way you did
I'd still be sane, oh yes I would too
I wouldn't have given you my heart the way I did
I wouldn't have loved you so much
That when you left me my world would just shatter
Why did you have to go? What was the big rush?
My heart's such a mess but how does it matter?

You took it n crushed it n threw it away
Now what am I to do, what am I to even say?
You broke me so even my maker wont take me back
It might have seemed small but it's more than a crack

No matter where I go, I always see you
I hear your laughter and even your voice
Feel your scent in my nostrils, your hand in mine too
What's the real point though, it's not like I have a choice
Should'a known from the start that it was just a dream
Your love was for real but wasn't forever
I'll tell my heart not to scream
I'm guarding it now, wont let this happen, never


You took it n crushed it n threw it away
Now what am I to do, what am I to even say?
You broke me so even my maker wont take me back
It might have seemed small but it's more than a crack
No even my maker wont take me back
Believe me I tried, but He just wont take me back

The fool on the hill

Look up! You'll find me standing there

Looking stupid

Trying to grab your attention

I'm the fool on the hill

Dancing this dance for you

I wave and I shout

And I jump around

Trying, if only, to get a glimpse from you

I'm the fool on the hill

Dancing this dance for you

I wish you'd turn

And look in my direction

I've been here awhile

I'm the fool on the hill

Dancing this dance for you

You might have noticed me

I don't know for sure

I've been here forever

And forever I will

I'm the fool on the hill

Dancing this dance for you

I've got so much more to give

I didn't do enough
But I still did a lot
I gave you my heart
Our souls bound as one
And then you left
Never to return
I waited on you
While my heart wept a lot

If only you'd stayed long enough
You'd have known
I've got so much more to give

These memories will be
With me till the end of my days
I mended my ways
I got better
And better I would get
In this time and the next
I would love you without rest
It wouldn't always be
Rainbows and butterflies
But if you'd have stayed


If only you'd stayed long enough
You'd have known
I've got so much more to give


I can't lay the blame on you
No i can't
No matter how many ways
You find to say
It wasn't me it was you
I know better than that
Situations
Circumstances
Trials and tribulations
I'd have found a way to work around
And make it a better life
A life full of love
A life so complete
A life where there'd be a lot of you n me


I didn't do enough
But I still did a lot
I gave you my heart
Our souls bound as one
And then you left
Never to return
I waited on you
While my heart wept a lot

If only you'd stayed long enough
You'd have known
I've got so much more to give

That what was

Sitting serenading of a love that was
a million questions unanswered since it was

why did she not know when it was early
that her future with him was gonna be blurry

He loves her, he does, like no other before
and never will he love anyone anymore

why when he held her hand and confessed
that she didn't see love and in-spite of it professed

what happens now that his heart is broken
she just walks away like its not her problem

He loves her, he does, like no other before
and never will he love anyone anymore

Strength

i dont want to be strong if it means i bring so much as a tear to your eyes
i dont want to be strong if it means i dont have you in my life
i dont want to be strong if it means i dont have your hand in mine
i dont want to be strong, no i just dont want to get in line


This heart has been broken before
And every time i pick up the pieces
I'm missing one or two or more


i dont want to be
no i just dont want to be
i dont want to be
strong anymore

Some thoughts, wishes, and words.

For years, I searched in vain, for peace, for love, for tranquility, you already know.
With you I found these, I let go of all vanity, you already know.
For you, I lived, I'd die, I'd fight death and come back, but then, you already know.
I'd wait for you, a lifetime, a million lifetimes, for your return, and again, you already know.

But then, you already know all this and more,
My thoughts, my feelings, have never been hidden from you before,
My life's an open book, to your eyes, if only you'd look,
I wish times were different, I wish situations weren't so demanding,

I can only wish, that you be mine, forever,
Forever, an eternity in my eyes, I only wish, time stood still, when I was with you,
I'd have held your hand then, and never let go,
I'd have hoped then, that everything would've been alright,

And hope would have lived within me,
An undying flame, fanned by the feelings, within me
And hope, would have kept you by my side,
Hand in hand, the way it is, with people in love, but that, you already know.

Memories Remain

Like dust we will all be one with the earth one day,

Friends, families, foes, all left behind,

And in time, pictures will fade,

No musical ode or poem will keep us immortal,

Holding on to fragile hope, trying to see like we once saw,

Innocence lost, jobs found, emotions burnt and rebuilt,

How we will want and long to go back to those times but in vain,

In the end, Nothing but memories remain.

The Change, Me

I am quite the bastard

But I’m changing

And I hope I can give you all that you deserve

By being and getting better

For you

For us

I must warn you though

I’m quite the cynic

And everything I see I take with more than just a pinch of salt

So if I embarrass you

I’m apologizing now

As I will then too

Will you be ok with that?

There is no turning back now

Isn’t there?

Walk away, if you want to, NOW

I will nurse my bleeding heart

And don’t look back

To see if I’m ok

I will be

Some day

Maybe not this time

Maybe not till the next time I will be burnt

But I will live

For live I must

And cherish the memories

Of times spent in your presence

So walk away

If you want, NOW

And I will nurse my bleeding heart

The crying beauty by the sea

I remember now, i saw into your eyes, not many years ago

And pain looked back at me

You sat there on that bench, staring at the sea

The wind, salty and harsh, blew a foamy spray in your face

Unblinking, with tears in your eyes you were, looking far into open space

What troubles, i wonder, put a furrow on your brow

Who was it that put you in this predicament?

What makes you ignore your drenched clothes, sitting there, it's freezing and i wonder how

Lean on me, my shoulder's yours

Here, wipe your tears, your mascara stains your face

Lending to you a different beauty, though it means you're in pain

Get up now, hold my hand, walk with me

Sunset approaches, the night is near

The hounds are a howling, their hunger awakening

Be wary now, hostility is a linger, don't worry now, you have me here

And then she came, she walked with me

Far into the darkness, her fears at rest

Away from the pain and her travails

The castaway, the beautiful angel, that discarded best

Verbose

here i am, sitting, crying, paining...

my heart is hurting, burning, aching...

eyes are smarting, tearing, i'm trying...

to stop them from flowing, i hope no one's watching...

all the effort that i'm making.

here i am, lying in my bed, sheets drawn over my head...

thinking about all the sweet times we had together...

sulking, grieving, that tomorrow you'll be gone...

knowing that now you're going, i will again be alone...

hoping, waiting that someday we'll be meeting once again.

here i am, working, concentrating, trying not to think of all the pain...

but my mind is wandering to you always, again...

i wonder what you're doing...

are you all right or do you also feel the same?

cursing, swearing that my luck is playing a game...

all my life i've been craving for the loving and the caring, that you've been showering on me when you were here.

here i am, doing nothing, idling, whiling my time away...

thinking, remembering, enjoying the memories...

of your smiling dimpled face, of your shining, swaying, hair...

of your look, your touch, your staring, into deep open space.

i am knowing of the fact that you are probably feeling worse than i...

missing that early morning waking, that afternoon chat...

the evening, walking by the bay, hand in hand...

dreams together, singing in one voice...

the kissing and trying new ways of saying "i love you"...

and goofing around, just the same...

you'll be missing things way past my imagining that i know.

hang in there my sweetheart, i'll be there...

i'll be waiting for your returning, just right here...

i know what you're going through and i love you and i care...

if you ever need me know that i'll be there...

etherealmerman

to his "little mermaid" Hebrides