You broke me

I blame you girl oh yes I do
Coz if you didn't love me the way you did
I'd still be sane, oh yes I would too
I wouldn't have given you my heart the way I did
I wouldn't have loved you so much
That when you left me my world would just shatter
Why did you have to go? What was the big rush?
My heart's such a mess but how does it matter?

You took it n crushed it n threw it away
Now what am I to do, what am I to even say?
You broke me so even my maker wont take me back
It might have seemed small but it's more than a crack

No matter where I go, I always see you
I hear your laughter and even your voice
Feel your scent in my nostrils, your hand in mine too
What's the real point though, it's not like I have a choice
Should'a known from the start that it was just a dream
Your love was for real but wasn't forever
I'll tell my heart not to scream
I'm guarding it now, wont let this happen, never


You took it n crushed it n threw it away
Now what am I to do, what am I to even say?
You broke me so even my maker wont take me back
It might have seemed small but it's more than a crack
No even my maker wont take me back
Believe me I tried, but He just wont take me back

The fool on the hill

Look up! You'll find me standing there

Looking stupid

Trying to grab your attention

I'm the fool on the hill

Dancing this dance for you

I wave and I shout

And I jump around

Trying, if only, to get a glimpse from you

I'm the fool on the hill

Dancing this dance for you

I wish you'd turn

And look in my direction

I've been here awhile

I'm the fool on the hill

Dancing this dance for you

You might have noticed me

I don't know for sure

I've been here forever

And forever I will

I'm the fool on the hill

Dancing this dance for you

That what was

Sitting serenading of a love that was
a million questions unanswered since it was

why did she not know when it was early
that her future with him was gonna be blurry

He loves her, he does, like no other before
and never will he love anyone anymore

why when he held her hand and confessed
that she didn't see love and in-spite of it professed

what happens now that his heart is broken
she just walks away like its not her problem

He loves her, he does, like no other before
and never will he love anyone anymore

Strength

i dont want to be strong if it means i bring so much as a tear to your eyes
i dont want to be strong if it means i dont have you in my life
i dont want to be strong if it means i dont have your hand in mine
i dont want to be strong, no i just dont want to get in line


This heart has been broken before
And every time i pick up the pieces
I'm missing one or two or more


i dont want to be
no i just dont want to be
i dont want to be
strong anymore

Some thoughts, wishes, and words.

For years, I searched in vain, for peace, for love, for tranquility, you already know.
With you I found these, I let go of all vanity, you already know.
For you, I lived, I'd die, I'd fight death and come back, but then, you already know.
I'd wait for you, a lifetime, a million lifetimes, for your return, and again, you already know.

But then, you already know all this and more,
My thoughts, my feelings, have never been hidden from you before,
My life's an open book, to your eyes, if only you'd look,
I wish times were different, I wish situations weren't so demanding,

I can only wish, that you be mine, forever,
Forever, an eternity in my eyes, I only wish, time stood still, when I was with you,
I'd have held your hand then, and never let go,
I'd have hoped then, that everything would've been alright,

And hope would have lived within me,
An undying flame, fanned by the feelings, within me
And hope, would have kept you by my side,
Hand in hand, the way it is, with people in love, but that, you already know.

Memories Remain

Like dust we will all be one with the earth one day,

Friends, families, foes, all left behind,

And in time, pictures will fade,

No musical ode or poem will keep us immortal,

Holding on to fragile hope, trying to see like we once saw,

Innocence lost, jobs found, emotions burnt and rebuilt,

How we will want and long to go back to those times but in vain,

In the end, Nothing but memories remain.

The sad state of our country

I don't care if it was indeed Ajmal Kasab's birthday

I don’t give a rats ass for that bastard. 

I’m happy that my family is unharmed. But that doesn’t mean that I’m not pissed angry that this happened again.

How, in spite of all the “naka bandis” and everyone having to leave early for work just to make it in time, that they arrested two “terrorists” 2 days before the blast and didn’t manage to get anything out of them?

Was it really a terrorist attack? Or was it an attempt by those in power to shift the nation’s focus away from what it was fighting for, the Jan Lokpal Bill? And has it always been like this? Every time we are up in arms about something will matters to us, our attention is taken away by a blast or communal riots or something of that kind.

And we WILL bounce back!

YES WE WILL YOU IN POWER! AND YES WE WILL YOU RUNNING THE TV AND RADIO CHANNELS!

But it’s only because we HAVE TO!

And like the last time, WHERE are you? You who makes fiery speeches! You who think you rule this city! Where were you and your “army” when Kasab and his cronies held this city to ransom? Where were you when the bodies need to be carried away? Where were your men when we needed “fighters” to bring them down.

You will beat me up if I hold my girlfriend’s or wife’s hand in public. And your men go drown themselves in booze at whore houses and dance bars.

And Mr. Government official who runs our lives for us, and bleed us dry with taxes so high that we live from payday to next payday. Do you know what has happened in the US of A after 9/11? NOTHING! And do you know why? It’s because they bother about the citizens who brought them into power.

And they fought back!

Who am I? I’m the one asking the questions, before another bomb blows me, and fifty others like me, to bits.

Because soon after, this city will pick up the pieces, limp for a day, and get back to business. Because, we are NUMB!

The Change, Me

I am quite the bastard

But I’m changing

And I hope I can give you all that you deserve

By being and getting better

For you

For us

I must warn you though

I’m quite the cynic

And everything I see I take with more than just a pinch of salt

So if I embarrass you

I’m apologizing now

As I will then too

Will you be ok with that?

There is no turning back now

Isn’t there?

Walk away, if you want to, NOW

I will nurse my bleeding heart

And don’t look back

To see if I’m ok

I will be

Some day

Maybe not this time

Maybe not till the next time I will be burnt

But I will live

For live I must

And cherish the memories

Of times spent in your presence

So walk away

If you want, NOW

And I will nurse my bleeding heart

death

darkness embedded in my being
my soul unforgiving
i close my eyes call out a prayer
there's no one to answer no one to heed
my call in the night goes unheard
even in the light the screams unrelenting
mind in a twist
messed up and clouded in mist
i try to focus, my thoughts run astray
no chance this is happenin, no way
i'm fighting it but i know i cant win
this is it, time to throw the towel in
"i give up" i yell, i scream , i shout
blows after hard blows rain down, the baton stout
the taste of blood, metallic, at the back of my throat
not a sound escapes me as my spirit goes afloat
the end